I have never worried about water before. Until living here. I can do without electricity but water...well, we need it. And it makes me feel anxious when I don't have it. Normally, it eventually comes. But there is a big water problem in my building. And people are starting to get restless. I got my pump fixed but then I was asked to please not turn it on. Which is
ok for awhile...but that means that I don't have access to water. This morning, when I found my tank still empty...I stood up on my roof and tried to figure out what to do. You know they say that true character comes out when people get pressed. So, my initial response was... to be a jerk. I need water for crying out loud. I have a 'right' don't I?? The things inside our hearts are so ugly.
That's my true character- to be a jerk. And that is a SIN that separated me from God - not just an annoying personality trait that I can laugh off.... And I really believe that I am going without water so that the Lord could show me that. (and honestly, at the touch of a button I could get out of this situation)
I took a few deep breaths, walked down the stairs and met with my neighbor. "Are you taking tension?". she asked (this is their version of- are you upset"?)
I smiled and said "well, I would eventually like water". We went on to talk about her plants and her job and her life. She ended the conversation saying something very sad and revealing under her breath. "here...we live life by trickery". If I would have been a jerk to her--what would that have proven? Why do we want to make ourselves feel big so that others will feel small? So yea, I could have been mad. But, how sad is that- to know that you have to life live by trickery and deceit? When I am living life underneath the shadow of the cross. Why am I living as a child who has no hope? In my sin- I would have been a jerk and made her life even more sad. But in His grace- I can wish her a good day. So, yes, I can I do without water. Because really- He IS the Water. Because really- He tells us to not worry about tomorrow. And so I won't.