Journal Entry

I am on a roller coaster of emotions. I feel overwhelmed at the lostness of the world and at the vastness of the task. I have to remember that God is not calling me to a task, or a people, but to Himself. I am reading a lot of stories about people who have given their lives for the Cause. And I feel... average. I don’t feel like a giant. Sometimes I turn to God. Sometimes I turn to Facebook. My devotion is mixed with idolatry. My faith is mixed with doubt. My courage is mixed with fear. I liked what one person said this week. They said "courage is not the absence of fear, courage is the laying aside of fear to obey God, trusting Him with the consequences." I am glad I serve the God who is big enough for all of this.